About two weeks ago I was given this incredible opportunity to start at a christian radio station, Star99.1 FM! I was so thrilled to start, but also overwhelmed, as I had already taken on three jobs, and this was to be the fourth. Then came the questions: How will I get from NYC to where the radio station is? Where will I park my car at night? How will I pay for gas and tolls? But, a radio job is what I had been searching for ever since I moved back to New York in 2009, and the possibility to work for a christian radio station, and serve people and God, couldn't have been more perfect... so I hoped and prayed that God would provide for me, and I said "YES!"
My normal schedule was to be on Saturdays from 10a- 3p, and Sundays from 12p-4p. However, this week they asked me to fill in from 7pm-10pm...and work my normal weekend shift. I was so excited to have more hours, but also a little bit worried about how I was going to balance out all of my jobs. So, I took a deep breath and I called out of my restaurant job, I called out of my job doing promotions, and I asked my office if I could leave a little bit early every day to make the hour and a half drive to the radio station- haha! And somehow, by the grace of God, all of my employers were extremely generous, and even beyond that, excited to help me fill in these extra shifts at the radio station!
Monday came, and so began my new schedule... office from 9:30a-4:00p, take a subway to the west side, pick up my car, drive from nyc to the radio station, work at the radio station from 7:00p- 10:00p, and then drive back to nyc and find parking! wow.... you'd better believe that by Tuesday morning I was already wondering how I was going to make it through the week. But then something funny happened....
Last night while I was at the radio station I came across this quote in my daily devotional book, and I read it to the listeners: " You do not realize now what I am doing, but later you will understand." (John 13:7)
I just sat back, kind of floored for a minute. I had been so consumed and worried about making it through this week, and then I read that verse. I thought about how incredible it was, and how true. The passage went on to give an example of the type set to a typewriter. About how, when we look at the type set to a typewriter, the letters are all backwards and they don't seem to make any sense... however after they are printed on a page, they make perfect, and wonderful sense! And so maybe that's how our lives are. Maybe... some things happen in our lives, and they are tough, and we struggle through them, and we wonder how we are going to keep going, and if these things are making a difference in our lives, or the lives of the people around us. But as these events unfold, and as we keep pressing on and walking forward, with our heads held high, this beautiful story unfolds behind us.... And one day, when we look back... it will all make perfect sense!
So for today, I leave you with the same quote... and I hope it makes you smile when you think about your life. No matter what stage of life you are in, or what sort of struggles you are going through... one day, you will look back and realize that it all made sense!
"You do not realize now what I am doing, but later you will understand." (John 13:7)